Biohazard

Last week after sleeping approximately 100 min, I woke up, got dressed, dressed a 1 year old, packed a diaper bag and drove my husband to the hospital for a scheduled surgical procedure to return his voice.  Driving in the dark, dodging deer, I realized we were on dead empty, so stopped and put $13 in the tank (length of time I was willing to stand there and pump and freeze in the dark).  Made only a tiny bit late.  When we arrived the yard crew was hard at work, in the dark, weed wacking with headlamps - never saw that before ...

So, I'm on day 2 of my period, which means I am bleeding like I have a fresh stab wound.  After all the paperwork, checking him in, yadda yadda, I head for the car with the little guy - emergency stop at the bathroom - always fun with a spectator - unavoidable when you are running solo.  Decide a Walmart run would be with most efficient use of my 3 hour wait.  By the time I pull into the Walmart parking lot I'm feeling like I need a transfusion, and the baby has pooped.  An entire box of fresh blueberries turned into diarrhea pooped - it's everywhere - seriously - everywhere.  Did I mention it was cold that morning?  Last week of September and it's frickin' freezing.  What the crap?  Didn't think we moved to Alaska, but dang ...... it's cold! So, I have a hoodie on and the kiddo is layered up with onsie, pants, socks, jacket - all now contaminated with poop.

We proceed to the Walmart bathroom and destroy it.  It was not easy to clean, or contain.  I did my best and 5,000 baby wipes later he's in the only piece of clean clothing in the diaper bag - a short sleeved onesie, shivering and whimpering.  I gotta buy the kid some pants and socks.  It's cold and this is ridiculous. I'm contaminated with blood and poop.  I am biohazard.  Throw me in the incinerator.  I'll never be clean again. Burn it all!

We survived Walmart, the pooptastrophy, etc.  Go fetch Grandpa, and get home - all before noon.  WAY too much problem solving before noon. 

End result - Hubby has some voice, hoping for future improvements.  Baby is no longer sick and he and I are sleeping.  I am no longer an evil zombie and I didn't eat anyone's brains that I can remember.  

I Made This

https://acaibrazilhawaii.com/

I made this today.

Before I made this I  -

• changed multiple diarrhea poopy diapers
• drove family around town running errands in a car without AC and a 1 yo in the back seat
• did a lot of laundry (poopy diapers and rug and clothes and car seat)
• went to a doc appointment with 1 yo where he got 6 shots
• went to Wal Mart - twice!
• had Jack in the Box tacos for lunch at 3:45pm (That was a bright spot except they didn't give me my drink and I had to go back through the drive through to get it.  The baby was asleep, so I wasn't going in.)
• cleaned the stove
• made dinner
• ate dinner
• bathed a baby and put him to bed for the night
• did more laundry
• checked the mail
• hid in the bathroom and cried
• prayed

The Gurus are Dead (or maybe just in hiding)

The latest fad in internet marketing (aka - selling vapor on the net), has a predictable formula:

1. Find a niche, any niche - do some market research to see what ad words test the best.
2. Declare yourself an expert.
3. Come up with some expert content based product - webinar, online class, digital book, etc.  Don't actually print or produce anything tangible - this is all about the digital.
4. Offer some piece of this for free.
5. Flood all of social media with ads for your free thing.
6. Collect the contact info of all the people who take you up on your free offer.
7. Stick them into a sales funnel.
8. Market the crap out of that list.
9. Keep feeding new names into the funnel.
10. Make million$!!

Like any dumb fish in the lake, after you take the bait a couple of times you can smell it from a mile away. 


When the little man steps from behind the screen, you can see that the Emperor has no clothes. (Yes, mixing references to literature - it's the same concept - and can't you just see the Wizard standing there naked behind the screen? )

What if there are some things you  would seriously like to learn?  I'm talking some absolutely, legit, for real deal, skills.  How do you find the actual experts in this sea of phony baloney gurus?  They all tell a good tale, or sing a great song (maybe not all - some aren't even expert at the bamboozle.), but when you get about 3 pages of scrolling in you figure out that they don't have the answers you are seeking.  Unfortunately by this point you have double opted in, and are now in the sales funnel loop hell.  Yippee for an inbox full of emails with the latest offer and the biggest discount! 

If you write

So, we moved.  Life is no longer what I know.  It's all upside down, and inside out.  The core that matters is the same - C, R, Q, T, M, A, O - God/Church - thank goodness that's all the same, but the rest, well - it's all new.

I need to get unstuck and on track.  I'm not sure what or where that track is, so until I do I am going to do a couple of things that I think will help me figure it out.

I am one decision away from a totally different everything.  What I want is a totally different financial life.

Change you decisions, change everything - Mel Robbins.  Ok - Let's go!

I have decided that I will -
1. Write something everyday.  Use this gift I have been given until I write something important, sellable, meaningful, publishable, or I at least get some direction.  I feel completely inspired that if I write,  the opportunity I am looking for will come into view.  So, I will write.  For now, here in the privacy of the test kitchen.

2. Exercise - training for the big hike I am totally excited about.  I need to get my muscles and my legs used to this altitude and step inclines.  I am surrounded by roller coaster hills - my driveway, my back yard, up to the water tower, the street I live on.  So, I'm just going to do it.  I went up and down the driveway 3 times yesterday.  Tomorrow I will do it more.  Each day I will do more and I will get faster and pant less.

3. Read the Book of Mormon in the next 90 days cover to cover.  It's a great challenge from LH to the YW of the ward, and I have accepted it.  I am already ahead of schedule.  Daily Book Of Mormon.

4. Pray specifically for what I need.  a. The BEST money education - true, real, possible, fits my thinking style.  b. The BEST money making opportunity.  c. Success in all work  d. Means to pay all of my responsibilities now and prepare for the future, and repay old debts.

5. Be responsible for my own crap and do it well.  Stop assuming responsibility for other people's crap.  Help if prompted, but don't take over the responsibility.  It hinders them, overwhelms me, and makes me a nasty wench.

6. Meet new people.  Reach out and take the first step.  Find my friends.

Enough for today.  I'm off to bed.

Personal Space

You know your life is full when you turn to a blog for some privacy.   I need some alone time with my thoughts.  It seems so ridiculous all the things people get upset about.  Honestly, who cares?  Why does anyone worry about what someone else is or isn't doing with their life?  We proclaim a love for freedom and individual choice, then criticize and judge the heck out of the choices of others.  Seriously?  You want the freedom, but only you know how to use it correctly?  Those that don't do like you do are wrong?  Says who?  What's it any of your business anyway?  Are you God?  Are you the boss?  Are you even remotely responsible for the outcome of the choices of other people?  Just shut the heck up and go fix yourself. 

My life and my choices are MINE.  Yours are YOURS.  I have no right to question, criticize, or belittle you for the options you choose for your life.  I claim the right of personal revelation, which I follow in varying degrees based on my faith at the time.  I grant you the same right.  Please, please, please stop making comments about how I live life and how others around you live life.  Do your thing and let everyone else do theirs!

Thank you and Good Night.

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I am the Boss of Me!

Back in December and January work was slow, money was tight, and I panicked.  I was a freako.  Things have turned around and business is booming.  I'm busier than ever and the bills are getting paid.  I'm so grateful!!  What a blessing!

In my panic, I decided to take a job working in town (hate the drive), for lower than I usually make, doing stuff that is super easy for me, but it's admin work, and not really what I want to spend my life doing.  The place is chaotic and dirty. 

I find myself tired all the time and rushing from one thing to the next.  The things I love are the things on the bottom of the list and often go undone.  Priorities are upside down again...

I don't remember the last time I wrote something that meant anything to me.  My FB comments are kind of profound sometimes - lol.  It's been ages since I have hiked, or gone to the beach.  I have a super awesome new project that I need to get launched.  I've done a limited release, through another avenue, but not in the format it deserves. It feels urgent, like if I don't do it soon, someone else will do it and my chance will be missed.

I have so much that is half done and those are the things I want to spend time doing!

So, today, I didn't go in to work.  Rescheduled for tomorrow, and I am writing.  I am going to write and get my brain straight.  It's what works for me.  and ... then ... I am going to get that website LAUNCHED!!  There is money to be made, and beautiful things that the world needs to see! 

I have things to do for other projects too.  BUT - they will have to wait in line.  Today, this afternoon, this bit of time I took back from the chaos, is mine.  I'm going to put my desires first.  I will get to the other things, for other people, but I will do my stuff first.  I have taken care of all the essentials that others count on me for.  I am not leaving anyone hungry, stranded, neglected or ignored.

I have my happy hippie oils to set the mood - patchouli, Hawaiian sandalwood, etc.  My rock n roll is blasting, by feet are up, and I am in my zone.  I'm the boss of me :)

One of these days I will do the same and head to the mountains and the sea.  Oh gosh, how I need to get outside and play!