You know your life is full when you turn to a blog for some privacy. I need some alone time with my thoughts. It seems so ridiculous all the things people get upset about. Honestly, who cares? Why does anyone worry about what someone else is or isn't doing with their life? We proclaim a love for freedom and individual choice, then criticize and judge the heck out of the choices of others. Seriously? You want the freedom, but only you know how to use it correctly? Those that don't do like you do are wrong? Says who? What's it any of your business anyway? Are you God? Are you the boss? Are you even remotely responsible for the outcome of the choices of other people? Just shut the heck up and go fix yourself.
My life and my choices are MINE. Yours are YOURS. I have no right to question, criticize, or belittle you for the options you choose for your life. I claim the right of personal revelation, which I follow in varying degrees based on my faith at the time. I grant you the same right. Please, please, please stop making comments about how I live life and how others around you live life. Do your thing and let everyone else do theirs!
Thank you and Good Night.
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Wednesday, April 1, 2015
I am the Boss of Me!
Back in December and January work was slow, money was tight, and I panicked. I was a freako. Things have turned around and business is booming. I'm busier than ever and the bills are getting paid. I'm so grateful!! What a blessing!
In my panic, I decided to take a job working in town (hate the drive), for lower than I usually make, doing stuff that is super easy for me, but it's admin work, and not really what I want to spend my life doing. The place is chaotic and dirty.
I find myself tired all the time and rushing from one thing to the next. The things I love are the things on the bottom of the list and often go undone. Priorities are upside down again...
I don't remember the last time I wrote something that meant anything to me. My FB comments are kind of profound sometimes - lol. It's been ages since I have hiked, or gone to the beach. I have a super awesome new project that I need to get launched. I've done a limited release, through another avenue, but not in the format it deserves. It feels urgent, like if I don't do it soon, someone else will do it and my chance will be missed.
I have so much that is half done and those are the things I want to spend time doing!
So, today, I didn't go in to work. Rescheduled for tomorrow, and I am writing. I am going to write and get my brain straight. It's what works for me. and ... then ... I am going to get that website LAUNCHED!! There is money to be made, and beautiful things that the world needs to see!
I have things to do for other projects too. BUT - they will have to wait in line. Today, this afternoon, this bit of time I took back from the chaos, is mine. I'm going to put my desires first. I will get to the other things, for other people, but I will do my stuff first. I have taken care of all the essentials that others count on me for. I am not leaving anyone hungry, stranded, neglected or ignored.
I have my happy hippie oils to set the mood - patchouli, Hawaiian sandalwood, etc. My rock n roll is blasting, by feet are up, and I am in my zone. I'm the boss of me :)
One of these days I will do the same and head to the mountains and the sea. Oh gosh, how I need to get outside and play!
In my panic, I decided to take a job working in town (hate the drive), for lower than I usually make, doing stuff that is super easy for me, but it's admin work, and not really what I want to spend my life doing. The place is chaotic and dirty.
I find myself tired all the time and rushing from one thing to the next. The things I love are the things on the bottom of the list and often go undone. Priorities are upside down again...
I don't remember the last time I wrote something that meant anything to me. My FB comments are kind of profound sometimes - lol. It's been ages since I have hiked, or gone to the beach. I have a super awesome new project that I need to get launched. I've done a limited release, through another avenue, but not in the format it deserves. It feels urgent, like if I don't do it soon, someone else will do it and my chance will be missed.
I have so much that is half done and those are the things I want to spend time doing!
So, today, I didn't go in to work. Rescheduled for tomorrow, and I am writing. I am going to write and get my brain straight. It's what works for me. and ... then ... I am going to get that website LAUNCHED!! There is money to be made, and beautiful things that the world needs to see!
I have things to do for other projects too. BUT - they will have to wait in line. Today, this afternoon, this bit of time I took back from the chaos, is mine. I'm going to put my desires first. I will get to the other things, for other people, but I will do my stuff first. I have taken care of all the essentials that others count on me for. I am not leaving anyone hungry, stranded, neglected or ignored.
I have my happy hippie oils to set the mood - patchouli, Hawaiian sandalwood, etc. My rock n roll is blasting, by feet are up, and I am in my zone. I'm the boss of me :)
One of these days I will do the same and head to the mountains and the sea. Oh gosh, how I need to get outside and play!
Saturday, November 29, 2014
Mediocre Oblivion
There has to be a better way. I am not as smart as I once thought I was. I don't know the best way to do everything. I don't have life all figured out. I am missing some key information, or skills, or something. There are things I don't understand and I am not sure I have the capacity to understand. Knowing this makes me feel defeated. As long as my superior intelligence was a certainty, I had confidence in my ability to eventually maneuver successfully through life.
Apparently I am an idiot on some levels. I don't know how to move passed a certain level of competency. I am stuck, plateaued and stalled in the center lane. I know how to work hard. I know how to figure a way out of most situations. What I have come to realize is that I don't know the BEST way out of most situations. What I know is A way, one way, one possible solution, and that it isn't always the best answer. There are other ways of doing things that I am completely oblivious to. I don't want to be.
How can I rise above the oblivion? I need a teacher, mentor, role model, hero, example, something. I need to see how it is done and then I can try and follow. I look around me and I see more mediocrity. More minds stuck in the oblivion. Some might have a little piece here or there, but where is the stellar example of excellence? I don't see it in my life. I hear a lot of talk. I see a lot of try. I see a lot of want to. I see a lot of people who are like me. I want to find a group, or individual that is doing better. This so-so, scrape by the skin of my teeth junk is getting seriously old.
I am not satisfied with the get by mentality. It's better than the give up mentality, but it isn't good enough. There MUST be a way to rise above and really succeed at something. I know there are doors that I don't open because I feel I am not capable of walking down those paths. I know I shut my mind to options that seem out of reach. I am ready to start looking down those unfamiliar paths. I would rather not go it alone. If that is the only way, then I will. I feel too old to be starting this kind of journey. I should be wrapping things up, and looking for a comfy way to enjoy retirement and grandparenthood. Instead I feel like a 20 something still trying to figure out what the heck I want to do with my life. Too many years wasted thinking I had it all figured out. Too many years of lying to myself. I am not the smartest person in the room. Well, at this moment, I am, because I am alone, except for my dogs, and I can unequivocally state with no doubt, that I am smarter than they are. They are confused by the concept of wrapping their leash around a pole and all they need to stop the torment is to back up, one step.
Heavenly Father, show me a door, and I will open it. I promise. I will do the hard things and I will be humble and teachable. I am open to learning what I am missing so that I can finally move beyond this same, stuck, almost there place that I have been far, far, far, too many times.
Apparently I am an idiot on some levels. I don't know how to move passed a certain level of competency. I am stuck, plateaued and stalled in the center lane. I know how to work hard. I know how to figure a way out of most situations. What I have come to realize is that I don't know the BEST way out of most situations. What I know is A way, one way, one possible solution, and that it isn't always the best answer. There are other ways of doing things that I am completely oblivious to. I don't want to be.
How can I rise above the oblivion? I need a teacher, mentor, role model, hero, example, something. I need to see how it is done and then I can try and follow. I look around me and I see more mediocrity. More minds stuck in the oblivion. Some might have a little piece here or there, but where is the stellar example of excellence? I don't see it in my life. I hear a lot of talk. I see a lot of try. I see a lot of want to. I see a lot of people who are like me. I want to find a group, or individual that is doing better. This so-so, scrape by the skin of my teeth junk is getting seriously old.
I am not satisfied with the get by mentality. It's better than the give up mentality, but it isn't good enough. There MUST be a way to rise above and really succeed at something. I know there are doors that I don't open because I feel I am not capable of walking down those paths. I know I shut my mind to options that seem out of reach. I am ready to start looking down those unfamiliar paths. I would rather not go it alone. If that is the only way, then I will. I feel too old to be starting this kind of journey. I should be wrapping things up, and looking for a comfy way to enjoy retirement and grandparenthood. Instead I feel like a 20 something still trying to figure out what the heck I want to do with my life. Too many years wasted thinking I had it all figured out. Too many years of lying to myself. I am not the smartest person in the room. Well, at this moment, I am, because I am alone, except for my dogs, and I can unequivocally state with no doubt, that I am smarter than they are. They are confused by the concept of wrapping their leash around a pole and all they need to stop the torment is to back up, one step.
Heavenly Father, show me a door, and I will open it. I promise. I will do the hard things and I will be humble and teachable. I am open to learning what I am missing so that I can finally move beyond this same, stuck, almost there place that I have been far, far, far, too many times.
Tuesday, June 10, 2014
Looking for new ways to make some CA$H
In an effort to up the income without seriously impacting the daily schedule, I am experimenting with affiliate programs.
The first one I am trying is i declare. It's pretty jewelry with customizable engraved charms. I like it. I hope it works!
Click this link - buy some jewelry! Do it!
The first one I am trying is i declare. It's pretty jewelry with customizable engraved charms. I like it. I hope it works!
Click this link - buy some jewelry! Do it!
Tuesday, June 3, 2014
Cacophony
As
soon as an author uses the word cacophony my opinion of them drops.
Have you ever said cacophony in a normal conversation? No. People do
not say this word, they only write it and they should stop.
Another one bites the dust today. I am not even half way in and I am ready to throw in the towel. It was dragging a little and now he used the dreaded word ....
Another one bites the dust today. I am not even half way in and I am ready to throw in the towel. It was dragging a little and now he used the dreaded word ....
Wednesday, May 21, 2014
Just 2 things
I want to distill it down to just 2 things, but I think it is either one thing, or a 100. Two is just not going to work for this situation.
If it is one thing, then it is ..... keeping promises, doing what you say your are going to do, less talk and more do, only say it if you mean it, don't spend money you don't have yet, pay your obligations before you play, if you promise something then make it happen or die trying, if you can't keep your promise then at least feel bad about it and do what you can, try to come close, be careful what you promise, pay your debts with love, think before you commit, read the fine print, do your part, do what you say, mean what you say, give a damn ..... TRUSTWORTHY.
The image I see for this is a rock. It is what it is, there is no disguise, it does not change, it does not run and hide from storms. It stays put, lets the rain soak it, the sun heat it, the wind buffet it, and yet it remains, steadfast, immovable, strong and TRUSTWORTHY.
If it is one thing, then it is ..... keeping promises, doing what you say your are going to do, less talk and more do, only say it if you mean it, don't spend money you don't have yet, pay your obligations before you play, if you promise something then make it happen or die trying, if you can't keep your promise then at least feel bad about it and do what you can, try to come close, be careful what you promise, pay your debts with love, think before you commit, read the fine print, do your part, do what you say, mean what you say, give a damn ..... TRUSTWORTHY.
The image I see for this is a rock. It is what it is, there is no disguise, it does not change, it does not run and hide from storms. It stays put, lets the rain soak it, the sun heat it, the wind buffet it, and yet it remains, steadfast, immovable, strong and TRUSTWORTHY.
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